Over the last few days I've been weighing the options of my personal relationship. I love him, there isn't any doubt about that. The decision I need to make is, do I really want to be in a relationship. I'm not so sure I want to be in a relationship at all. But does love outweigh the fact that he is the one I want to spend the rest of my life with? He needs to know what is going on because if my decision is 'it's over' things are only getting worst by the minute. I love him and I know I love him and I believe he knows I love him. On the other hand I don't want to feel like its over every time we fight, I don't want to be the one to pull away and I don't want to be the one to concede when we fight. Its a tough enough situation and I don't need to make it more difficult by thinking to hard which is what I do. There are so many factors in determining a great relationship, ours fall in to that category and thats a plus. But when we fight we fight and I am usually the one thinking things over while the only thing he is thinking about is 'he doesn't want to lose me'. I don't want that power over someones heart; its too much to handle and I don't have the mindset to do that. Life is hard yes but love should be easy right? So what is my decision? The million dollar question but I don't even have a dime to my name. I love him and that should be enough to get us through this. At least I hope so. Somethings in life are made for each other, like U&Me, I love you baby!

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