Right now we are watching a movie. A Christmas movie about a man who has to live the day over and over again. And each time after he's realized it wasn't going to change unless he changed it, it became a special day for him. It became special only after he did something to make it special. This got me to thinking about us and whether I would have something special, a special day that I would want to relive over and over again, and I began remembering. The first day I would choose would be the day I fell in love with you. You'll never know exactly when it happened but it happened and that is what is most important. I was with someone who didn't appreciate me, and I was blinded by what I thought was love. But you showed me a different way, a better way, the best way to love and be loved. I'd decided that I deserved more and you made me feel like I did. So that was the day I decided to love you for the rest of my life. It wasn't that easy though. I would be almost four months before I decided to actually make it official because although it was exactly what I wanted, I wasn't sure it was what I needed. The longest time in my life but when I told you and I saw the relief on your face, August 02, 2006 both of us were the happiest people in the world. That would be the first day. The second would be the day that Julie and I drove all that way to pick up the man of my dreams, this is a great day even though you didn't kiss me. Did my breath smell? I'm kidding but still you didn't kiss me. Hey I'm serious! The third day would have to be our first anniversary. You did so much to make it special and for that I will never forget. I'd never felt so loved in all my years of existence. I'm not sure why I'm writing you this letter, but what I am sure about is that I love you with every ounce of breath that's in me.
I started this letter in the beginning of November, and since then we've been having oodles of issues in our relationship. I never finished the letter so he did not receive it. But here is the start of my thoughts. Unfinished, uncensored and unknown as to what is going to happen in the future.
Pull out that power suit! After a free-spirited year, 2009 brings back the structure and predictability that you prefer. On January 5, expansive Jupiter enters Aquarius — your 10th house of career, prestige and leadership. Get ready for a thrilling year of career growth and changes, even a fancy new executive title. Jupiter is the luck planet, so the gods will be smiling on you!
Don’t put your feet up on the coffee table just yet, Taurus. Jupiter rules long-distance journeys. You could find yourself traveling, with offshore contracts or communicating regularly with people in faraway places. This trend will really rocket off on January 26, when an eclipse falls in Aquarius, surprising you with exciting news. Eclipses on July 7 and August 5 will also touch on your career, home and family sectors. You might even relocate or change your family’s lifestyle as a result of your career growth.
The good news is, you don’t have to be chained to a desk. Last year, Jupiter visited your ninth house of travel and freedom, showing your normally rooted sign the joys of flexible hours and unstructured fun. Taurus, you’re a security-minded sign, but in 2008, you may have risked some of that for a taste of independence. Some Taurus friends shocked us by trading in their well-established businesses or stable 9-to-5s to travel the world, work three days a week or freelance while dreaming up their next big idea.
Now, transformational Pluto is in your ninth house (until January 2024). This sector of your chart also rules study, religion, philosophy, entrepreneurship and multicultural or international issues. You could find yourself starting a business, going back to school or traveling the world — and being deeply affected by your experience. You could even write a book, as publishing is favored. There’s a “hippie” element to the ninth house. So if you embraced your inner Stevie Nicks or Jerry Garcia, don’t give that up!
In matters of the heart, slow and steady will continue to win the race until October 29. Serious Saturn is in your romantic fifth house, bringing shape and structure to your love life. Saturn has been here since September 2007, marking a more serious chapter in many Tauruses’ approach to love. If you’re still feeling terminally single, turn to a mentor, matchmaker or dating coach. Authority figures fall under Saturn’s rule, and the guidance of a pro can help you meet your soul mate. Saturn can restrict, so if romance has been hard to create in your relationship due to a busy work schedule, book a regular date night to bring back the mojo. Saturn rewards a man or woman with a plan!
A pregnancy is possible, or you may find yourself dealing with fertility matters. If you’re trying to have children without success, be patient. The more you force it, the more Saturn will resist. There may be some personal issues you need to work out first, even resolving an inner conflict about whether or not you truly want to be a parent.
If you’re an artist or creative person, spend some time each day working on your craft. Painting, writing, dance, theater, building, woodworking — whatever your creative outlet, it will be a saving grace when you’re stressed. Also, you can rise to noteworthy heights if you’re willing to work hard. Saturn can bring prestige, as long as you pay your dues. Fortunately, you already know that the secret to success is persistence.
Saturn is retrograde (moving backward) until May 16, a low-power position for this planet. Retrogrades turn our attention to the past. If you have unfinished business with an old flame, it’s a good time to put up healthy boundaries and gain closure. You can’t create a bright new future if you’re dragging along ghosts from your past. The retrograde is also a great time to dust off a latent artistic project or skill.
Communication planet Mercury is also retrograde in Taurus during the first part of May. Your birthday month may not be the highlight of 2009, but take lots of deep breaths and think twice before you speak. It will all work out.
On October 29, Saturn moves into your sixth house of health and fitness. It’s an important time to get serious about your well-being, and to devote regular time to living a “heart-smart” lifestyle. You might even work with a trainer or nutritionist to help you get in tip-top shape.
In the summer, your social life gets a jolt of fresh energy. Exciting new friendships and groups could also appear this year, courtesy of eclipses in July and December. You could also receive a thrilling call or message. Keep your ears perked around July 7 and July 22!
Your luckiest days: April 25, July 7, November 2, December 31
Just stay in bed: January 21, March 8, May 8, September 7
Constantly it goes on and on. He's so hurt, and I'm not? Hello! I'm continually hurt by the lack of attention and lack of having a man who will take care of me. Its not that he can't he has done it but then, here we go... Again! That's right again folks, over and over. At least 3-4 times a year we go through this same stupid ass argument. And this time, I'm just not going to deal with it anymore. And of course he tries to use the excuse, well you can make a move on me. First off, I've never HAD to do anything to either him nor any other boyfriend I've had. I've never had a problem with lack of sex with any one other than him. Hell when I was in college females even came on to me when ever or where ever. But hey if that is how he rolls. Maybe he doesn't understand that life, or our relationship isn't a magazine article. The TV is the problem? Please spare me. When we aren't fighting about sex TV isn't a problem. When we aren't fighting about sex he's all over me. But he expects me to allow him to feel all over me, to kiss me, to hold me and not be disappointed that I'm hot or wet and have to stay that way? I'm tired of talking about it, fighting about it, just plain tired. So instead of just that I'm giving up on us. Funny thing is of all my relationships I've had a vision on whether things would work out and our vision had a happily ever after and I've never been wrong about these things, but hey we can't be right 100% of the time, so I guess I'm single again. A man, who is suppose to take care of me can't? Especially in the most intimate way? Now that hurts.